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WARNING: THE CONTENT OF THIS WEBSITE MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR YOUNG VIEWERS, FOR INSTANCE, INAPPROPIATE WORDS LIKE FUCK, SHIT, CUNT, ASS, HELL, PENIS, VAGINA, HERPES, BUTT, ORGY, STD, GAY, LESBIAN, DAMN AND SEX MIGHT BE USED IN THIS SITE AT ONE POINT OF TIME, ALSO THE PROMOTION OF ROCK MUSIC AND ONLINE RPGS ARE WITHIN, SO ANY HIGHLY RELIGIOUS PEOPLE, PLEASE LEAVE AND GO READ THE BIBLE OR SOMETHING, IN OTHER WORDS, EXPLICIT CONTENT, VIEWER DISCRESION IS ADVISED... AND ALSO, HIGH BANDWIDTH SINCE I HAVE A TON OF JPGS AND FEW WMA ADUIO FILES AND PLUS POSSIBLE OTHER KINDS OF MEDIA WILL REALLY FUCK UP THE LOAD SPEED OF THIS WEBSITE... MY ANSWER TO YOU, BUY BROADBAND

MOO!

MOOCOW!

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I EAT POO!

I PLAY TIBIA AND SO SHOULD YOU

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ifyoufiguredoutwhattheh@lli'vebeentalkingaboutyouareeitherageniousoranlegallyinsanemadscientisttryingtotakeovertheworldwithpetflyingmonkeysandcocoadoughnutsinthesummertime.

lateralus forever!!!...

do you feel sleepy, bored, numb? does your genitalia itch all day from sitting? well then 'school away' is the perfect thing for you, just apply the device to the center of your school and watch your life get more exciting.

hail the all powerful purple cow!

moo moo... moo! MOO MOO! i said moo dammit!
shrouding all the ground around me is this holy crow above me black as holes within a memory, blue as our new second sun stick me hand into the shadow, pull the pieces from the sand try to attemp to reassemble, see just who i might have been i do not recognize the vessel, but the eyes seem so familiar like phosporous desert buttons singing one familiar song...

"so good to see you, i missed you so much, i'm so glad it's over, i missed you so much. came out to watch you play, why are you running away? came out to watch you play, why you running away?"

PRYING OPEN MY THIRD EYE

PRYING OPEN MY THIRD EYE

PRYING OPEN MY THIRD EYE

PRYING OPEN MY THIRD EYE

FEEL MY WRATH UPON YOUR WORLD, MUAHAHAHAHA!

i'll kill you, then eat your flesh and sell your insides on ebay for lots of money bitch, i'm a demon, i'm rick jame's half brother, bitch!

YOU SHALL BURN WITHIN MY BREATH

my breath is so bad cuz i never brush my fangs, but besides that burning your skin off my fire might do something to ya...

ATTACK OF THE ROTWORMS! OH NOOOO!

we are underpaidyeah, hate my jobmaybe if we got a raise i would stayall we do is eat dead bodiesi'm sick of it, all for some gold?yeah, like 5-25 gpthat's not enough you knowthat's right, we got worm families you knowand with that little money we can't pay billswe can't buy mroe dead bodiesit's a ghetto for worms, and it sucksso please send your tax deductable donations to the save rotworms charity, thank you...

I SHALL BEHOLD YOUR SKELETON AND SOUL!

.... STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT! ... bitches...

fig. 1(The news of xeronian daily, weekly, monthly, or just whenever i update this about my life)

10.20.2005............. i just realized that bolt.com's journal was deleting previous entries when i edited old ones, so i'm transfering all my lyrics to my website cuz now bolt is gay :P......... cigerettes are bad, smoke them rarely, don't get addicted to them......... everquest isn't all that great, but at least the people who play are nice, unlike tibia. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ 10.13.2005.............. i am trying to get a better host, but for now i'm gonna try to transfer to fortunecity again, and i also have quit tibia to play everquest, but i still like the OTs tho. i am still looking for a true love, but over the internet, i can't handle going anywhere in reallife to meet people, unless i'm forced to either a school or prison like area. i've gone thru so many kinds of equipment and services dealing with computers that i'm getting a headache from it. other than that, not much is new...
9.14.2005 ...... i got rid of a lot of features of my website cuz yahoo gives me so little bandwidth that i'm suprised that that many people even came to my website to even cause it to give me problems... but if you still want to listen to a couple songs i got online at http://www.angelfire.com/rock4/xeronia/ and i don't garauntee that won't fuck up, but at least bandwidth isnt the problem, so just close it out if it takes extremely too long to load, and retry. maybe someday i'll pay for yahoo so i get considerably more bandwidth... also as news, i am experimenting with a tasker program on an OT server, it's nothing great, it's just a simple macro, isn't even all worth paying for, but i get 30 days free... in other things, i got from rank 13 to rank 16 in halo 2's head to head thanks to my friend playing for me til 15, and i got to 16 cuz a guy wasn't that good quit out when i got 7 more points than him, which gave me double EXP; and i don't dare play it anymore cuz i don't wanna risk losing it which i bet i will, lol... in other news, after failed attemps to find true love within dating sites that i refused to pay for, i met someone on bolt.com (lmao) she is almost everything i could want in a girl, likes my music, is cool and understanding, and even lives within my zip code, but there's one very bad thing... she is only 15 years old... but she doesn't care... and i just barely care... and the only reason i care at all is cuz society cares, now, i don't plan to met her and fuck her or anything, i am just a desperate soul that wishes to have peace and love and affection, sex can come way later for all i care, just get me before i become impotent; oh, there's another thing that bugs me, she like never is online, i feel as much as alone with her than without her, all she does is send me a 3 line long bolt note every 4-5 days, and i'm wondering what the hell is taking her so long to respond to my e-mails, i'm sorry, i'm quite more needy than the average guy, especially since she doesn't seem to care enough to bother to call me once in a while, ever... and she doesn't seem to put forth effort to one day meet, and i've had tighter relationships with people from toher states and even countries... dot... dot... dot... is how i feel... i've been polling about what i should update in this site, i'm doing it right now at bolt.com under my profile Xeronik... i actually think the poll is pointless, i was just bored, i'm gonna eventually do over my whole site little by little anyway.
7.21.2005 ......................... hello again, the reason i am using geocities is because i forgot my fortunecity password and it won't send me a recovery, and for a while i won't have some pictures (or any) just yet, but when i do i will finally add some shit to this void bore!..... and i think i just did that today... well in other news, my past love ashley inez sykes pefers just to be friends because of a few differences and with the fact she doesn't want to have long distance relationships, so now i feel lost and desperate to renew my idea for a new soulmate somehow..... as for wandering thoughts, i can't think of any yet, just be happy i put new pics on, and as for my lyrics, i have to screenshot them now, i might put more on, but only what you see for now, and i uped my hypertext links too btw if you noticed.........also, i've decided to put my lyrics in the hard to read regular format, saves me a lot of work.............................................................................................................................................. 6.1.2005 ................................ hi to anyone who still views this website, i've been gone and busy for long ass time, sorry, if you care, and i got some news about my life... after using e harmony, and hot or not, and trying to meet girls in rl, i figured out that the gods are making me do something by fate, they want me to stop trying to find someone new, they want me to apply myself in finding my soulmate, and her name is ashley inez sykes, and despite the fact her parents don't like me, and it's been almost 3 years since i've even talked with her, i feel i'm destined to be with her, so i'm gonna try to call her.... in other news, things in tibia were going well with having bright sword and such until one day i was dissconnected when fighting beholders, BITCHES! I HATE BHS NOW AND I HATE NETZERO EVEN MORE! i'm set back 2 months and pissed off... also, i made few more chars on random new worlds, one fo them based upon halo 2's covenant arbitor... halo 2 is kinda hard if you dont practice a lot or if you are not well oriented with xbox style gaming... well, that's all i can think of, and btw the lesbian story is off, lost my inspiration for it, but i'm sure i'll think of other shit to say
3.30.2005.............................. hello again, i am still not thinking of anything new lately, i've been dying to add mp3 files but just havent had the computer to do it yet, and also that i still can't figure out why my lyrics down there are run on, and i've been writing a lot, i can write 3-4 songs within 30 minutes, it's amazing....... and btw, i hate tables, i want to fucking delete every last one and just use black background, maybe, cause i hate typing all this shit, table border=3 bgcolor="black" tr td rowspan=20 valign=top font color="white" /font /table yeah, it really pisses me off and also i wish html was more flexible so i don't have a run on sentance, i forgot what to do to make it so when i press enter in programing it then would make it go on next line on the actual page, so i should reread the html writing shit.......... and to keep you all in mind, half the shit i say in my wandering thoughts dont even really have anything to do with me, i just randomly make up crazy shit for your enjoyment as well as mine, and i think i got some more ideas...
3.3.2005 ............... problem, i forgot that my songs appear differently on the website than it does in the html writing, so my lyrics might be a slight bitch for you all to read, sorry, don't know how to fix that, i'm not a genious, if i was a genious i would be in college making everyone feel bad, haha....
2.17.2005 ........ ok, i've been thinking about my lyrics, and they might change often, quite a bit, cuz i realize if i were to ever try to write them as full songs, i wont be able to sing them cuz they are unstable to me, so i have to fix them in a way i can have a fixed feeling throughout the whole song, and since i'm at my moms, not many or any pictures will be uploaded nor music yet, but dont piss on yourself, go to the bathroom and come back in a month, i'll be up to speed by then
2.14.2005 ..... hello, and love hina pics are starting to come up, as well a lyrics by me, i dont plan on making any kind of message board until i see my website is actually viewed by more than a couple people in a month, but i'm gonna get back to putting songs on my website again too, but it takes so long to upload with dialup... i need something new, something to dazzle someone, i need a better website, a cool one, moooooo!
2.9.2005 .... guess whos back with a brand new rap, no it's not rabbit, nor shady, it's me baby!!! now i'm gonna make you dance, and prance, and glance at a picture of pudding for no apparent reason, within acts of treason, i didnt mean to burn a flag, but president bush is being a fag, and all the homeless people will rise back, with the king jack black, for all we know, it's gonna be a show, of fire, blood, sweat, and tears, linkin park had little struggle over the years, but got rich quick with their theory, at least they didnt sell out like metallica or britany, so everyone, oh oh oh oh, yeah yeah yeah yeah, come play, oo oo oo oo, what what what what? this rhyme is stupid and gay, right after a show, i come home to listen to j lo, broke my tv and sold it for scrape, doesnt anything good these days come out of rap? at least we still got eminem and jay z, still something left to entertain me, but when will the other side of music, also starting to make me sick, rock is starting to turn to mud and slop, even worse than a lot of hip hop, bunch of soft rock, pop rock, punk pop, sound drop, in quality, cant sing, cant dance, cant play, all the way, pieces of shit running on the rock and roll fucking hall of shame, and how did they get fame? from all the stupid people who have no taste, TRL groupies and everything today is a waste, now let's sing with them, what?! ok?! for you i pray, if that's all you can say, yeah yeah yeah yeah, oo oo oo oo, come on and say, oh oh oh oh, ung ung ung ung, this sounds really gay, what what what what? ee ee ee ee, who writes this shit anyway? do do do dooooooooo, come play, play, play something right!!!.......... In other news, i'm adding runescape to my website cause tibia pisses me off, and i'm gonna put in love hina stuff soon too, peace ya'll!.
11.11.2004 Pikachu dies with french fries! Ash falls on his ass, Erika smokes some grass, Misty stripes to starckness, Brock lies within the darkness, and team rocket falls down a hole, with pok'emon in control, but time for the death human and monster alike, cause the armegedeon will strike... yeah... now back to real stuff, i was bored, so i wrote that within 2 minutes, the reason i hated crystal was simple, but my dark side can take pain and mix it with the simplest things to get me to turn on someone, but i feel a little bit better though; although she didn't want to take things beyond friendship with me, she is actually one girl that i felt like i could actually be happy with, not a undeserving desire like i usual have, in which i would torture myself in depression from feeling unworthy of someone i want so badly, but i felt like i didnt have to be like that with crystal, so i was crushed when i couldnt get her to like me (but i suck at getting all girls to like me anyway), but now that this hate is lifted, i feel i still cant go back completely, this scar is deep, it will not heal so easily, but nothing will make it better, i'm almost dead inside from this, if crystal ever would change her mind now, i would be too emotionally scarred to love her again, from all this pain she inadvertenly given me... but it's not the only thing stopping me from resuming my past, i have another past, something nearly forgotten, but i know of a girl i met online, and becuz of complications (parents kicked her off computer, they thought stuff, blah blah, saw tv show talkin bout internet stalkers), so i awaited the day that we were both 18... but i have been fearful that she will not remember me, or want to talk to me, so i havent tried to contact her by phone quite yet, but maybe i have hope in that direction, but so weak... Robbie is an asshole btw... Sean can be a dick that thinks his opinions are facts, i he ever goes gay, he'll probally call everyone faggots for being straight... i fear that the fool that i am, if i keep being around crystal i fall over again, and i will shoot myself... I'm not buying anymore concerts until Tool goes on tour, i will freak out if i dont have money the day they finally come... i dont blame crystal all that much anymore, it was my niaveness that caused me my pain, i have made myself tortured, but crystal isnt completely inocent, but at least she drooling over that self-centered, egotistical, short-tempered, lying, betraying, trailer park trash, bottom-feeding hoe Matt Thode, i will bring you down you fucking, cock sucking, piece of shit, i'll tear you bit by bit, and cut you with glass, you are nothing but an ass, like breaking the back, of your head with a sword, then shove it up your crack, and push onward, up to your brain, i'll apply the pain, prepare for death soon, but you dont get off with that much ease, you fucking lying bafoon, i'll let it sink in like a disease, i warned you not to let me explode, you explode me! now i'll unleash my wrath upon you, you matt thode! your survival will have to depend, on how you reach this end......... back to previous topics, i still like crystal as i said, but i think i'm done with this shit, and dont get quick to think wrong of me, i may act like a weird horn dog, but that's just me being stupid, i have a sensitive and more serious side, i can be gentle, i perfer cuddling over sex, spooning over blowjob, i'm more affectionate than sexual if you didnt know, and i just want someone to love and care about me, to love and to hold, and at this rate, it's obvious its no one in my group, but i'm still open about it if one of them ever decides to go insane or stupid and think they like me....
5.29.2004 I saw a high school band, Paradox tonic, they were pretty good, they did some stuff of their own and did covers on some other bands, Evanescense, Nirvana, Rage, Foo fighters, and Metallica. They are made up of (I dont know last names) Dan (vocals, guitar) Bill (bass, drums) Jim (lead guitar) Dave (main drummer), there was some other guys too, but dont know names. They are gonna split up though, college, oh well, they could have been big. My love for Crystal Harris has now more than ever become a question, i care for her, but she seems to be a never ending drama all cuz the way she lives and thinks, and it's way too bad, if she wasn't so negative and if she would change her mind about a few things we could have been together as soulmates. 2 of my friends are ignoring me, and they wont tell me why, I have no clue what i've done to them, but I hope this blows over before summer vacation.
5.19.2004 My friend, Crystal Harris, which i'm in some form of love with, has some similar self issues that i have, if i can get over matt thode and find a way to get her to like me, we can share each other's feelings, and mend each other, and try to live in happiness... but in some more realistic things... I had a truck go throught my lawn over the weekend, i didnt see it happen, but you can tell it happend. I skip my second study hall time, which i use for Nova net, sometimes and go into 2nd lunch, but then when that's over i still have 20 mins left to figure out where to go... it is comfirmed, matt thode is Bi, but he doesn't like me, in fact, no one likes me, girls and boys find me unattractive i guess, well... i only want to attract the girls, but to know SOMEONE thinks i'm hot is nice.
5.10.2004 I feel little bit more happy than usual, yesterday i kissed my friend Crystal out of a dare, my first kiss ever, and i love it, the kiss itself wasnt perfect, but i dont care :) ... Sean is away, i'm waiting for him to come back from whereever, i miss him causing pain to my nipples, lol. Lately i've been playing on Nova, i'm getting the chars there up to speed to my secura chars, it's fun watching distance go up so fast. I dont think i have any good chance with Crystal tho, she loves another, and besides that, she obviously likes laudani more than me, but she likes me a little, my dark prophecy is broken, but not gone completely, but diamond 11 isnt showing much progress either, let's see what happens next...
4.18.2004. I am back finally, my antica chars on tibia are screwed, vimuvawo is an idiot, but secura is kicking ass. Sean beat me to level 50, he solos Black knights, but level 46 aint too bad. I could go over my friends love affairs but that will take up half the screen, but so far to my knowledge, Crystal and Mike are back together, for the time being anyway. There is a lot of stuff that happend i could have put here, but i didn't, and i'm not, lol. Alfonzo kicks ass, he cleared the way for me to get the crusader helmet quest, he is pimp, and dont ever underestimate dwarf guards, they kicked my knight's ass lately. That's all for now folks, but for those of you that ever visit my website thanks, cuz i'm a loser that needs attention, lol.
5.16.2003. I managed to get my paladin a shielding of 46, but swording takes (BEEP!) forever! 2 in a half hours and no swording adv. now that's nuts! But otherwise I'm close to level 30, and my friend is gonna get me knight armor for 15 K of gold, that's fair when it comes down to secura prices. Sean likes hunting GS, i would hunt them more but i want my next level first, cuz i want my antica knight the next level too, so i switch off. my knight got about 439 K of exp, needs 452 K to be lvl 32, and pally is... i forgot, but i know he's only 8 K off from lvl 30. i hope i can go to Sean's house today, he has a cool set up, computer right next to big screen TV, >:).
5.14.2003. Today i get to go back on the computer, so my level 29 paladin on the world secura will be happy to kill some orcs and go back to Thais for bolts so i can hunt those evil giant spiders. Dan better not boot me off if I hunt GS (giant spider) today, he's a dumb (BEEP!). But he trains my antica charactor Xero jay because I'm a lazy (BEEP!). lol... mnyeah. Well, my guild is down the drain and Sean's guild ain't taking any more in, i'm screwed. He's a genious compared to his brother Nate, but Nate needs more developing in his brain. I'm gonna find a way to get this site on the internet someday, til then this will be stuck at the school.
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fig. 2(some wandering thoughts within my head)

10.20.2005.............. what's the point of the mtv show Next? the only thing i want to be next is music videos, but instead you get to watch some dumb comedy show about 5 assholes insult each other with smiles and some blonde bist bastard bitch choose if he or she wants to get busy with them later, or push them aside while giving them a dollar per minute spent with her or him... and i think that's stupid, my social security would pay me more compared to me trying to get with some princess and she give me the boot in 3 minutes, if i want 3 dollars i ask my mom for money, 3 dollars is nothing, that can't buy me 2 bags of spinach or a CD... i just wish there was some caninable on the show to eat all the assholes out of the job............. you know, the feeling from smoking is like a sedative version of having too much caffine or coffee.... stay away from crap cigerettes and avoid having too much of strong cigs, the crap ones will get you addicted to something that tastes like shit, and the strong yet good ones will make you dizzy for 15 minutes, so DO NOT OPERATE MACHINERY OR ATTEMPT TO MASTURBATE WHILING SMOKING SALEM BLACK LABLES, IT MAY AND WILL CAUSE SELF INJURY TO OCCUR................. recently looking up german words from rammstein songs instead of the fansites, and damn german makes no sense, the grammer is werid and it has holes in their sentaces, like i would say I have a apple, they might say in german apple have i, or have a i apple, or something like that, and according to dict.cc, you're welcomes many meanings is odd, they have a word combination that out of context would mean nothing bottom, or not account, or no root, or none cause, and how is that suppose to compliment someone by saying no and some irrelivent word?................... i believe that anyone as young as 13 should be legal to join in on consentual touching, but sex is forbibben until at least 15 BUT with strong rules... and the rules are that it first requires a spiritual unity (xeronian marriage), and i am still deciding how it works, it technically can happen on any full moon night, which the ceramony starts just as the sun sets and is finished with the party and process by midnight, which will then open the opportunity to engage in love and complete the vows in a act of sex, but sleep must come before sunrise otherwise bad luck may follow... in the ideal situation, a full moon on new years would offer a tight true love that no evil can seperate, but that is so rare, but otherwise any time a full moon comse up before new years eve (xeronian evolution night/xeronian true love night) can mean good or better luck within the relationship held..................... it would be awesome if girls could control their bodies, like make it so they have power over their "cycle" so they will only get pregnant when they want to, and will only menstrate if they feel like it... LMAO, yeah, all girl love their period, haha... and in fantasy, xeronian born women gain magic at age 11 and CAN control their bodies and mind to do this, wouldn't the world be better as Xeronik as god? ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ 10.13.2005................................... hotdogs and beer totally go together, and the reason becuz they are so alike. they are so alike yes they are, cuz like beer, after having 3 or more of either will make you sick and throw up................ why are all the niciest and easiest girls in sweden? that language is more confusing than german, but if i want love then i have to go to sweden cuz i am a loser.............. girls can masturbate all they want but guys have limits, sometimes i try to pretend i'm a girl and masturbate over 5 times in a day, but it just hurts afterwards, take that in any way............... my niece has debated and accepted the fact that the lead singer of My chemical romance is gay, but she says he's bi, confusing, but maybe he is gay, and he should pair up with sum 41's lead singer so he can teach them how to play good at a concert, i'd say a few assfucks should put bizzy D in order............. why do people think Love hina is so graphic? that shit is PG compared to half the shit they put on adultswim, and yet it gets denied still? what is everyones problem? the things that happen are on accident, it's barely reffering to true pervursion, you want to see true pervursion then come step inside my head for a day, i said head, not bed.... but you know if you are an attractive girl then maybe... no wait, just kidding...
10.11.2005..................................... german makes me wonder, how can they understand each other? their grammer is so confusing, like in that rammstein song Engel, when he says got weiss ich will kein engel sein, people translate as god knows i don't want to be an angel, but if you go word for word it says... god knows i want don't angel be.... lol, see see? ............. i've been thinking a lot, now this is serious not some kind of sarcastic joke or humor like most of my thoughts, but anyway, i believe the law should ease up, and no, everyone should ease up on relationship legality, not because of sex though, you can keep the sex laws for all i care, i beleive sex is merely an animal instinct that does not determine love, but i beleive someone lets say age of 18, should be able to date a 15 year old, cuz if it's for honorable reasons then love should be no matter what, we don't need sex, our animals inside us crave it, but we can control it, we can be intimate without doing inappropiate things, we can share love without lust, and i'm not just saying all of this cuz i online dated 15 year olds and need an excuse to avoid being sued, lol................ it's ironic, metallica wanted to stay in by trying to be like other bands, but people didn't like them for being who they are not tho, they "tried" to sound like korn and i personally dont like korn as human beings, if they are even that, and their music isn't all good, metallica has more good songs on kill'em all than what they got in all of their albums, barely, but i really think that the reason metallica, well not quite suck, but near it, is cuz of lars, he is fucking stupid, james isnt perfect, but lars is the main reason why people hate them, newstead wasnt perfect, but he didn't determine if metallica sucked or not, he could only do what he was told, why do you think he left? and robert is cool, he isnt a sellout, and kirk, hell if you even dare, he is so cool, practically egoless, robert and kirk should find a good singer, and a new drummer and make a band called METALlica, and the old metallica should change their name to assholica, or poprockica, lol, i'm only being being mean to them cuz lars pisses me off, if james singing wasn't so... that, he could join kirk too, but he could only join them if he promised not to sing, hire a new singer, cuz james never messes up riffs, but he sure as hell screws up words or doesnt have them on tune......................... i wish it was socially acceptable for guys to wear womens clothes for whatever reason, they are silky a lot of times, it is not only a turn on to cross dress but it is quite comfortable of you can imagine it, i mean, we are not dumb, we know what silk is, not imagine silk draws, we dont need bras, but the underwear and maybe even skirts would be cool, or we can do the cobain thing and wear frilly dresses =P ........................................why do people call everquest evercrack? everyone can get addicted to any game, but if the game is good enough you get crazy, and i wouldnt say it was good enough to slit my wrists over, if i could name the game it would be called everproblems, cuz all i fucking get is problems, 1-2 hour patching, shuts down my computer randomly in serious error, can't let me play more than 1 account at a time and it's a long process to switch, and recently all polygon models stopped working in the options editor except for vah shir and froglok, but i dont even own the expansions to play them! so sony is really pissing me off, maybe microsoft should make a MMORPG, you know, the same company that made the system thats better than PS2, Xbox!!!!!! if they made something it would whip the floor with everquest, and not even blizzard could outdue it i bet. i bet it would be Fable online or something, lol.............................. all internet is gay unless you are paying over 300 dollars a month for it. DSL, it's awesome and better than cable if.... you live within a mile of the tower, the further the slower, cable, virtually fast and seemingly flawless but it's speed is more affected by networks and randomly shifts thru speeds instead of being at a DSL constant, and sometimes has hidden charges, cost more money, dialup.... obvious..... satelite, fast download but horrible upload, and mostly everything that can be downloaded requires a similar upload speed so most things you do would be suckily slow, so if you are rich and you NEVER want problems with download speeds and extreme gaming, get good RAM and T1 minimum, but any better with cost dramatically more.............. in conclusion, german is confusing, america is still somewhat unreasonable, internet services are gay, sony entertainment is gay, and lars ulrich is a dumbass, have a nice day.
9.14.2005 ....... i was just thinking about the hurracain katrina, and why do we always name hurracains with weak sounding feminine names? not to be sexist or anything, but how bout we call these masters of distruction something else? like names from books of darkness or demon names, like hurracain Nalfeeshi has just swallowed inocent souls into an abyss of terror and a lot of fast running water; and i know this is serious matter, sorry for joking, but really, what does sound more reasonable? katrina or Nalfeeshi (which i think i misspelled, i dont got my DnD book with me)... everyone hates bush, nothing new, but i hope everyone saves up for the big party when bush finally can't be preisdent anymore, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... german language is a headache to figure out, i can easily look up word for word online, but i can only piece together guesses of what good grammer is, but it's too tricky, words shouldn't have mroe than 4 doubles meanings, or 10 at that, lol... with drug companies lying about shit, it's no wonder why so many people waste money on pills or die when they could have eben cured, i won't reveal much, but i heard of a cure for herpes, cancer, asthma, and other things using inexpensive materials, and are actual cures not just drugs you take for the rest of your life, and makes me think, i could use my knowledge to become a sorcere of healing, and make quick small money off of selling simple products and instructions to cure people of certain things, i would be god!... netgear are fuckers, time warner installed a gateway router and it doesnt allow good bandwidth transfer and xbox live disconnects it in stressful situations and it really pisses me off; and i have to say my thumbs get good exercize from all the text mesaaging i have to do, without a comm, and it sucks i can't message people until they are in my clan or friends list, and all this stupid shit happens, some of my friends there are so immature, one of them kicked me out of games just cuz i beat her too much, and zyos needs to clear up some of his messages so i can send him a friend request, when i met him at summerfest i told him if i ever got live i would message him, but i obviously can't... they should make special dresses with nirvana logos on them, but not jst for girls, guys should wear them too, to salute the band ya know, have a bunce of guys wearing dresses to promote anti-homophobia across the world.
6.1.2005 ........................ nair is a cheapass shit, it does not last longer compared to shaving, but at least it doesnt itch, how bout that?........ i do not have a pic of me, not even near me, just an ID, but if i had to sign up for hot or not i need a pic of me, which i have no way to get, even tho i got a scanner, it's a fax scanner so i cant just place my face on it, so i'm screwed!........... how does fooly cooly get back on CN and not Love hina? i want to see love hina on tv!!!!!....... i seriously wish i could be a girl by will, some part of me feels like one, i want to be a bisexual woman, i know i'm weird......... i got tons more songs but no way to put them on my website without putting forth work, me too lazy!...... you know you are too obsessed with halo if you start trying to make lego guns....... you know you are too obsessed with halo if no one likes you and you got rank 24...... you know you play too much halo if you can tell everyone the first and last name of all the charactors in 45 seconds....... you know you are obsessed with halo if you stand up in church reciting the game manual....... if you think gun cleaning should be a holiday, you might be a red neck....... if you like president bush, you might be a red neck...... if you think foreplay is a term used in golf, you might be a red neck....... if your underwear has the confederate flag on it, you might be a red neck...... the end for now, cya.
3.30.2005.............. another note, if you use mosturiser and shaving jel then you wont iche, dont ever listen to my words of wisdom, i dont know shit, i'm a fucking idiot :P ...... anyway, i suck at Halo 2 as much as Britany Spears sucks dick, muahahahaaha... -cries- it's so sad.... not to sound racist, but it's people like president bush and clinton that inspire me to vote for either a woman or black president, no offense to gender and race, just offense towards bush, actually no, that wasnt saying anything, what i should say that i'd rather vote for a piece of wood with crayon painted on it than bush.... rap is like always the same, kill gangs, drive bys, weed, foxy woman (nothing wrong with that), money and such, and then nu metal is always like wining and angry and shit and then grunge and similiar is like what the fuck are you trying to say? the water is so yellow i'm a healthy student, i'm half the man i used to be, i forgot just why i taste, oh yeah, i guess it makes me smile, the dogs can smell her, a travel through a tube and end up in your infection, sell the kids for food, cause it likes to heal, i like to steal, and etc...... i'm sick of sexual shit, even though i never shut up anyway, but really, human lust is annoying to deal with, i need to be nuetered and spayed, :P ............... maybe weed should be legal, who cares if it fucks you up, just dont drive and smoke it or do anything at all, just sit and talk about how signifigant a plant looks or the colors in a light bulb having conversations about politics dealing with power struggles and stuff that normally couldnt be concieved by people that are not high on drugs and yes i have no fucking clue or proof of the fuck i'm saying me no understand monkey poop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 pooooooooooooooooooooop!........... i forget nirvana is gone a lot, i wish someone could make a band that will pick up where they left off, get high, talk about suicide, sing about shit that makes no sense, call em nirvanas aprentice, no even better, name them scentless apprentice :P ...................... i wish i could produce metallica, they really to throw out bob rock, and call me robert thrash, i would turn st anger upside down and give it speed, instrumental, redo on half the words, guitar solos and better art......
2.21.2005 ............................ further note, do not shave your legs and pubics and arm pits and body parts cause IT WILL ITCH LIKE HELL AND YOU WILL NEVER WANT TO SHAVE ANYTHING AGAIN! ......... don't try running away if you know it's freezing outside and the nearest town is 50 miles and especially when you don't know where you are going ......... sometimes i feel like a ghost, no one notices me unless i'm singing metallica or pushing them off chairs, i'm so lonely, me need a girlfriend, but no one wants me, so now i cry, WWWHHHHAAAAA!
2.18.2005 ................ instead of lubercants, people should just use hsampoo in the shower to jack off with, cheaper that way, and who cares about warming on contant stuff, your girlfriend should be warm enough for ya, or boyfreind......... never shave your hair, you will hate having to scratch it like hell for 2-3 weeks, and if you know what i mean, legs and other forbidden areas, very itchy......... guys get the shortest end on sex toys, what do we get? a blow up doll we can stuff our junk in? and girls get vibrators and dildos and... and... other stuff...... this should be in my news section, but i hate typing my table programing, my story will be edited so it's more in depth, i dont think it's good enough as is, i'm gonna add on to it whenever possible, hail satan's balls!
2.17.2005 ................ i hate holidays, pointless unless it gets you timeoff from school or work, especially valentines day, i'm so lonely, i hate love only because i dont have love, so maybe i just need a hooker instaed, or a pizza, or maybe i could be gay, but i think the pizza sounds like a better idea, if only temporary........................ and now continueing onward "lezbiapocalypse", so then Arika's demented tormented soul drifted on for centuries, soon to posess a girl named Tonya Stein, she was also a lezbian, lived in the usa but was of german heritage, Tonya was a 17 year old high school student somewhere in the state of new york, and if i had a better grade in geography i could tell you more in depth information, but i didnt, so too bad, anyway, she was of the few lesbians in her school, and when she got a girlfriend kids teased and picked on her, so she wished something could happen to help her situation against bullies and narrowminded assholes, and that's about when the spirit of Arika posessed her, and she started acting different at school, paranoid of boys, and hated them so much, she got into fights with them, 2 out of 3 she won, and the other one the guy had help from 12 other guys, so she had to run away but with grace, she later got revenge by going to all of their house at night and hog tying them into their closets and bathrooms. she was found out weeks later and was put into juvinille hall for 6 months.... but she thought "they should have put me in longer, because what i'm planning will be the end of men as we know it".....
2.14.2005 ..... i dont think i put in the cellphone idea yet, so now i will, tell a girl to put her cellphone on vibrate and put it in her vagina, then call it repeatidly, good one eh?..... a long time ago, in a galaxy far far away, there was a lesbian named Arika, and she was a happy lesbian, had her lover, and gay stuff like that, but then one day strangers moved into their village, they protested this gayness and had them all burned, but Arika got away, and she made a small movement against the outsiders by raiding their town, but with little avail, they failed and were burned, but Arika was not, she was given a special punishment by an outlaw who kidknapped her from her captivity, wasnt an easy task bating through 20 guards, but he was determined to get his revenge for what her raids on the town did to his brother, cut off his balls, and now she is trapped in some dungeon with a guy who rapes her everyday until one day she escapes when his guard is down and she cursed words and made crazy statements about a prophecy, that one day lesbians will rule the universe, and a strange this is, a rock nearby had written this in stone somehow, as if by her or an unknown force that wants to help her, but even then a few days later he finds her and rapes her like usual but then gotten sick of her resistance he feeds her to the swamps dangers, crocrillas, phytonins, and other stuff that kinda looks like our swamp creatures but a parody of them, so then time passes.......-to be continued-

2.9.2005 .... eeeeooooowwwweeeee! ladies and gentlemen, it's an automatic, systematic, full fledged come back, so run, stop, everybody get on the floor, seise the party up, and some more things to know, let me see, 1 2 step, let me hear ya, 1 2 step, everybody 1 2 step, and hey the dj will get us free beer as we will we will rock you! that was an example of people who can't sing songs correctly........... hey, i'm funky fresh, but you know, not really, but what is fresh, is world of warcraft, and i'm wondering why am i writhing news in the wandering thoughts section.... ahahahahaha!!!....... i have no new thoughts what so ever.... i cant even think right now...... marry had a little lamb, little ham, sandwich, with bread as white as snow..... rap and r n b are the only genres that use anything for a song, j lo got a really annoying violin rhythm, snoop uses his own mouth to make a rhytm, maybe i could make lots of money just by hitting pots and pans while having someone rap about something for 5 minutes..... i think the blow jug is too underplayed, i have a way to improve this pathetic 75 cent instrument, have 10 beer bottles filled with dif amounts of water, and then blow on them in a rhythmatic order, it could work, really, it could, like the bottle zylaphone...... not enough deer hunters use arrows, but they should, do you honestly wanna eat something filled with lead and gunpowder?.... i'm gonna make a story about lesbians, maybe, it's about how they take over the world and such, it will be fun =), and remember, no matter what a stripper says, there is no sex in the womens bathroom, none, oh, there's women in the bathroom, but you dont just want women, you want sex, and there's no sex in the womens bathroom,... if a girl says she's 40, and looks 16, she's fucked up on crack, if a girl says she 18 and looks 18... who really knows if that id is fake or not, fuck her anyway, cornbread, there is something wrong with that... if a homeless man has a funny sign, he isnt a homeless person, probally just some asshole from MTV's punk'd,... if you been dating a girl for 4 months, and you havent met any of her friends, this means she knows you gonna get busy wit em and dump her, so find out who they are quickly, ... dear hispanic men, if you go to a movie theater, and someone wont shut up during the show, let it slide, why waste your energy, when probally some ex-con is gonna beat the shit out of him for you in a minute anyway?.... here's a horroscope, for everyone, aquarius, you're gonna die from seafood, capricorn, you are gonna get corn and caprisun pouches, leo, you are gonna complain about being lonely and being weird and not having enough friends and take forever to get a drivers license and job cause you got adhd and some shit, gemini, you are gonna join the jet force and die, scorpio, you are gonna get stung by a scorpion and live, but your girlfriend will dump you for being mutated,... some of things i said may not be original, some of the things i said may have offended chris rock for ripping him off, but no matter who you are, you must remember this one thing, no matter what a stripper says, there is no fruit coctails in pick n save for free.... wait... no, i mean no sex in the womens bathroom. the end, for now, muahahahaahhaha!
11.11.2004 It's 11 11 bitches!!! i'm back, back again, shady's back, lick again with a friend... i bet the reason swedish are so nice is becuz they make the tempur pedic beds, so they all probally sleep in them and they just wanna kiss you! ... don't think about not thinking becuz i think if you think about it not then you will think about it sometime later and maybe i wont think then... if i were ever to go to rehab, i want it to be becuz of sex, no where likely, but think about it, fucked a succubus and now i'm cursed to fuck everything that walks, i'll have to be tied up in straight jacket baby, but i'll still hump the walls... some games really have dumb rules, and they are not always set up right anyway, imagine a no nudity rule in stripe poker, off subject, sorry, lalala, ponies are pretty, wait, off subject again, dammit! i dont know, i lost myself on this one... i dont think breast should exsist, we dont need them anymore, it's called baby formula, why do we want to feel women's breasts? why why why?!?!?!... sucking your own dick is really hard if you are not very flexible, you might be able to get on the head for few secs, but no more, i have first hand exp... why do people, also, what's with anime? and why do some of us fall in love with the charactors? huh? I'M THE ONLY ONE!? YEAH RIGHT! THERE'S PLENTY OF LOSERS AND PERVERTS OUT THERE!!! moo... continueing, it's only paper, but it seems so real somehow, it makes you wanna live in the anime itself...
5.29.2004 new idea, you know about the sugar pill right? well how bout instead of that you can make pixie stix with birth control instead, genious! magic would be nice to have in real life, so many uses, healing and shit and so much, but mainly i thought if there was a spell to have it so girls don't have to go throguht thier period, they would love that.... I think people were made wrong, we go for looks too much, I myself find that i perfer the swallow side, but it's just a layer, I really want someone that is hot and good personality, but otherwise if she listens to my music and isn't too hard to get along with then it will work... if mars used to be a planet with life and now it's dead and cold, maybe it's cuz of it used to be closer to the sun in the past but it slowly drifted away, so maybe the earth is gonna be fucked someday too... why is sex so popular nowadays? what happend to our values over the years? well, sex is a good thing, if used right, but we aint just some animals mating, sex is for love, and to abuse the meaning of love is a sin to more than one type of religion... speaking of religion, people who have them are different, and as much as we would want to convert them to believe something else, they wont change, so let it be, and dont try to kill them or anything...
5.20.2004 I was playing around with my head phone chord and whipped it on my pencil and pulled, and it unwraps really fast and snaps back, so that made me think of a new weapon.... a thing that u can swing around, and the band would wrap around the stick of it and there would be a yoyo blade at the end, it would snap back at your enemies, yeah.... I wish i was a girl sometimes, but only becuz girls get treated better, girls do get pretty abused and things are still off balance, but it would be fun having less hair with silky skin fingering myself and rubbing my breasts all day.... the future i gonna be messed up, 2,000 channels to watch, satellite radio taking over, and cloning processes, but not really actual cloning, will be used for reproduction, otherwise there's a cure for AIDS and stuff, and everyone is steril, sex is supreme, and only by cloning process we multiply, think about it.... I should be the next Kurt cobain, it would be kinda fun humiliate myself and people calling me unoriginal and stupid, but all i would have to do is wear dresses, break instruments, sing and play guitar at same time, dye my hair, make interviews in gay magazines, and just plain out rock while on drugs.... I think i had another idea, but i forgot it, dammit i hate my memory, i had to ask a girl 4 times what her AIM screen name was, lol.
5.19.2004 I dont know if i said something like this before, cuz i dont check what i already have written, but i thought of something, no more buying condons, use pieces of plastic and a rubber band, you dont need spermicide unless it leaks out anyway... you know, people have sex in a lot of ways, the phone, the internet, the mouth, but maybe they should try something new, and this might sound like porno, but it's really a form of communications throught television, and it will be called sex-o-vision, there will be a mini camera and a hole in the set, as well as a build in vibrating dildo, depending on your preference... if i was king of the world, i would make abortions illegal, but suicide legal, big tobacco illegal, weed legal, drinking age 15, cars will run on things other than gas, and sex laws would be changed, as so: incest is still wrong, but why is teens doing it wrong? anyone 13 or older can do it, and if younger do it, instead of fines and punishment, just send them to counceling... if they legalize cloning, then they better figure out how to keep it from going out of control, but now that i think about it, if you put things together, you could make elves, from th mix of chinese people, cat's ears, and swedish people... mmm yeah.
5.10.2004 no more preformated text for this, i'm sick of pressing enter, but here we go... screwing and nailing means the same thing in sex terms, but maybe it would be easier if it was different... like nailing is for quickies and screwing is 10 minutes... they should make cars nonflamable inside, so for all the stupid people that park by volcanoes, it would melt b4 it burns, lol... why is there still arguements on gay marraige? marraige itself is a scam, so just let them waste their 5,000 dollars on it for crying out loud, if straight people are dumb enough to waste their money why cant gays?
4.23.2004 you know what? i hate preformated text i have to re-edit my website every line i write cuz it runs off screen and it's really annoying and also you would think this is news but it's just a thought, poop on a stick!!! i was thinking of something, ppl with sex changes, that doesnt really work out, i mean, what would u do if u were dating a convincing girl for a week, likeseverything u like, but then tells u about how she used to be a guy? you know, if you put enough work into it, you can fit a Axe deorderant bottleup your ass, it might hurt a bit at first, but if u find objects to slowly losen it up then it will work, i know this by having no life and over thinking everything, lol...
4.18.2004 everyone should be hermafrodytes, this way no one can be called gay or homo, and we could have a better understanding of each other that way I should make a band, i would play the guitar or sing, but i'm not really good, and i will write songs about stupid things like having sex with a llama or something why do people get implants? like calf implants, breasts, nose jobs, maybe they should have brain implants they so stupid, or maybe they can implant eyes in the back in my head so i can freak people out
11.20.2003 new idea with golf balls, and it requires a girl... get it stuck in her vaginal area and sue the golf ball company for not showing a warning lable: do not put in vaginal area. get a ruined car, put brick on pedal, and send it down train tracks, take picture of exploading car when it hits train, hehe.
11.19.2003. another sick and twisted idea, i am back with some more crazy thoughts... i was thinking about spongebob squarepants, and then i thought namebrand spongebob tampons, it would have the best absorbency ever. lesbians and gays make more sense to me, a little, it's more like you want what you want, so maybe i should control the world, cuz that's what i want... but i'm too lazy. they should try to make cigerettes nontoxic, and flavored without having to add crap that will kill you. they made a lot of flavors of ice cream, but why not beer flavored? yeah they should make like miller sundaes, mike hard ice cream, and samuel adams popcicle.
9.29.2003. a new idea for druggies, smoke ground coffee instead of other drugs, it's healthier and cheaper. a thought about computers, they are so complex and it's funny how they work... it's like magic, they show invent flying cars.
6.05.2003. i think they should make the 4 liter of soda, wouldn't that be cool? if the sky was red, the ocean would be red; cuz the sky reflects off of the sea. preformatted text is weird, it does what i want it to do but i have to constantly press enter so it doesn't run on in the page. what if ppl had no hair? that would be weird eh? then everyone would be cold in the winter and polish themselves. do u ever wonder y in star trek they show the crew, and they show the screen, but they never show the crew watching the screen.
5.16.2003. If the school wants good pizza then they should get Dominos get 1 get 1 free deal. Imagine if we were all one color, like purple, then there wouldn't be racism. If monkeys could fly then I think we should be able to fly too. Is Rhode Island really a island? Cuz that would be weird, you would have to make a bridge that's really long to get to it.
5.14.2003. My brain is constantly thinking, so i'll start things off with something... lesbians, i have respect but it is just a weird issue, how does it happen? i have a theory that it has soemthing to do with horomones, as like not enough of them cause a change of attraction, like demagnatized magnet. another thing is smoking, why doesn't it just fall? cigerettes are evil things that kill people and the people who make them get tons of money, it's evil! i think tibia should have some legal bugs/glitches, for things like looking like other creatures just for fun, but without the benefits of creature illusion. look like a demon all day, but it won't save you from one, ;)

fig. 3(the thank yous)

my thanks go out to Matthew "matt" Du De Voire for all the DBZ pictures he drew me, Dan "farmer dan" Lance for controlling my soul and getting me started on tibia, asshole, lol, Chris "evil god" Dietz for being an evil genious and helping me in tibia when he wasn't pissed at me, Sean "big dick" Hilleman for being like an annoying controling brother but being a funny and nice person most of the time, Julia "vegetarian" Listen that tried to help me with Socialogy but the pictures didn't turn out for the project so we failed anyway, Mike "sugar rush" Laudani that is a neutral and cool friend that is one of my friends that keep getting dumped for dumb ass reasons, but we love him, Matt "noobie" Berchild, even though he is really annoying in games, he is pretty cool in RL thanks to my friends on runescape for understanding me in ways i never thought imagineable. thanks to rob "miami" ramaris for being cool and be chillin with me when we bored

fig. 4 (Tibian RPG)

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i was so happy, like i acomplished something, but i later died from a dialup kick and lost my brighty

after my death i screenshotted myself NOT using a sword otherwise my friend would flip on me and say: paladins are not suposed to use swords, and i won't help you anymore if i see you use one again

i tend to do very bold and stupid things, but he lived through it anyway, but he didn't kill it either

lol, when i did mino hell with this polish guy, i couldn't resist but to lure one all the way to rookgaard surface and watch people panic and argue over chain armor

all pvp is so gay

as said in file name

i would have never imagined this day

start out with tons of shit, but only 10 distance!

they suck balls

light won't let you adv in magic, how gay, but hey, this world still rocks for a work in progress

i really made this area of the ot server fucked up

god damn cip, how high is their deffense?

there's a slight bug in quasarium that makes it so in some situations creatures wont attack you, so i pawned cycs and a zerk with runes on a low level mage

my friend needed me to transfer items to his other char, but i should have kept them eh?

GM teled me into the pool so i could swim in place, i love quasarium

i bet every knight with at least 1,200 hp wishes he could train shielding like this

hell, my char in my ot is bugged with high mlvl and skills, plus a shit load of hp, if demetro was in real tibia, people would get owned badly

i walked thru fire and then lured tons of trolls on me for fun

i landed on ghostship and i was curious what was done the ladder

on my ot, most respawns are fast, so i lured around some mino mages to kill GS and crap for me

fig. 5 (Runescape ruined ruins of candy rotten apples)

charactor: Xero Master

skills:...

fig. 6 (lyrical corner, or side, or center, or... pizza!)

"the Green Demon Within"
slime, filth, disgusting
my iron will is rusting
demons so distrusting
trying to sooth me with sin
lying demons seem to win
dying inside, killing all faith within
it's this specific demons style
trying to make me a petafile
spreading pervursion like a disease
someone kill this dark for me please
and it takes over trying to say it's me
digging into my skin letting itself free
tempting me to do bad things
knowing what bad it brings
but i fight it off, leave it to fantasy
but it still won't leave me be
it will come back using just the thought
and repeat everything like it previously brought
slime, filth, disgusting
my iron will is rusting
demons so distrusting
trying to sooth me with sin
lying demons seem to win
dying inside, killing all faith within
"lick the cheek, lick their lips"
i'm too weak, i'm losing grip
"too young just means no hair down there"
shut up demons i don't care
"and a preteen just got their bust"
i refuse to let you turn my will to rust
"you must touch it, feel it, caress it"
i won't, just kill me, arrest me, i don't need this shit
"you will though, you are weakening"
i won't as long as i have human being
"but you are not human, you are of evil"
but you dont have full power still
and i won't be a petafile
"you are just in denial"
"you will do as i say with a smile"
why won't you just die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"i'm invicable that's why, muahaahha"...
someone kill this dark for me please
someone kill this dark for me please
someone kill this dark for me please
i'm begging on my knees!
take away this slime, filth, disgusting
my iron will is rusting
demons so distrusting
trying to sooth me with sin
lying demons seem to win
dying inside, killing all faith within
and dying again and again
it thrives in my mind and lives in my skin
talking about doing taboo and sin
the green demon within
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"the Guy We Love To Hate"
introduction to this song
of how you like to do wrong
you do things even if you know i hate it
i just want you to know i'm sick of your shit
you are nothing but a hater and an instigator
you make your mom think that you don't appreciate her
Sometimes you make me think you are unreal
Cause you like to lie cheat and steal
you barely care about how others feel
You like to skip right by
With any little lie
And you fib-fib-fib
Immature brat that needs to be put back into the crib
chorus
Sometimes you make me feel like nothing
But just wait till the fat lady sings
And show you what karma brings
You claim you just can?t be beat
Cause all you like to do is cheat
And a cheap shot you are
Ignorant morons do not get way too far
chorus
Sometimes you just aren?t right
But you continue to argue and fight
Bickering on and complain with all your might
What are you real or fake?
Don?t lie for our sake
Be careful on the decision you make
Cause I?m on edge and about to break
You fucking liar!
And denier
You do whatever you desire
One day I will end your killing spree
Cause I?m sick of your personality
So onto you I will set my anger free
You have nothing to appeal
You have to take and steal
So on you take and take and take
Call yourself a friend?
You know how to pretend
But turns out that in reality you are nothing but a fake
chorus
Sometimes you just make me sick
Cause you act like a fucking dick
A traitorous lying denying asinine prick
Lie-lie-lie!  Mr. bad guy
Cheat-cheat-cheat!  But then take the heat
Steal-steal-steal!  And why does everything have to be such a big deal?
Cause you are nothing but a mean machine
Barely acts like a human being
So fed into power abuse
Hard to change so what?s the use?
With a shallowness as your style
It is my job to put you into my trial
I will sort through all your sins
Watch out! Now the trial begins!?
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"Burn"
i think and do things i shouldn't do
and i swear that i take no pride in such pleasure
whether i'm perverted or insane, i can't tell you
but the guilt is getting harder to endure
it eats me alive
won't let me stay clean
it'll lie for the sake of this
it will always survive
not even a human being
begging for so much as a kiss
i try to stop and take myself back
but it's polluted my mind too far
i have to make up for the talents i lack
to even think that one day i'd be a star?
but these thoughts just go on and continue
and i'm sick of this dirty feeling down inside
if i'm sick, if i'm bad, i won't tell you
not at least my demon has died
it eats me alive
won't let me stay clean
it'll lie for the sake of this
it will always survive
not even a human being
begging for so much as a kiss
so i beg you to burn me
burn, burn, burn me
my dark thoughts are full of sin
burn, burn, burn me
rid my demons within
burn, burn, burn me
my innocence grows thin
burn, burn, burn me
and let a holy exsistance begin
how much farther will this evil take this?
lusting anything for a touch or kiss
why won't this pervursion leave me?
lusting youth makes me feel so guilty
how much farther will this evil take this?
lusting anything for a touch or kiss
why won't the temptation leave me be?
cut off these chains and burn me free
it eats me alive
won't let me stay clean
it'll lie for the sake of this
it will always survive
not even a human being
begging for so much as a kiss
so i beg you to burn me
burn, burn, burn me
my dark thoughts are full of sin
burn, burn, burn me
rid my demons within
burn, burn, burn me
my innocence grows thin
burn, burn, burn me
and let a holy exsistance begin
burn! burn! burn! burn!!!
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Sterbe und Eirfrierend
well how should i start
cry and whine from a broken heart
swell that you came to me
too bad you are too blind to see
that i need love, cannot be alone
push and shove, no safety zone
you give me no messages, no calls on the phone
if you cant give happiness to me then i'd rather be on my own
message to my sister
ich sterbe
message to my girlfriend
ich eirfrierend
always problems i have with everyone
and i am definately not one of the sun
i follow a long dark line of negativity
and i drop beneathe the surface quite frequently
and to me,  i have fault
i feel like a fool, my shoulder has salt
i don't drool, over tongues of malt
du hab machte mich, mir ist so kalt!
ich kann nicht dulden dich
und du habe etwas probleme mit mir
dauernd menschen sind erz�rnt bie mich
und ich kann nicht Hilfe zufreidenheit lauten mit dir...
message to my sister
ich sterbe
message to my girlfriend
ich eirfrierend
it feels like the antartic
and i am freezing to death
i sink into my hole going frantic
increasing heartbeat and breath
always an issue, always some problem
if i wasnt' so i would just go and solve them
and even if i go north to the artic
it's still your cold enough to make me die
wether it's from suicide or just being sick
you will have to witness my lifeless body lie
always a fight, always an arguement
within a trial, me being the defendent
so what do we do now?
are we ready to compremise?
cuz i want to climb out of my hole
but i don't need to touch the skies
i just need enough to be alive
and hope any relationship can survive
but just until then i have a message...
ich eirfreirend, und es ist T�tung mich
and if you ever wonder what i would wish
ich will auf gehe weitab an eine Eiland Utopie
where i can be with my one true love and stay happy...
nein!
dem werde nimmer sich zutragen!
this will never happen...
message to my sister
ich bin sterbe
message to my girlfriend
ich bin eirfrierend
message to my allies
watch as everything dies
and i am sorry things had to end
doch ich bin eirfrierend
eirfrierend!
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EDEN
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i want to ravish the garden.
and tear out all the flowers,
i wish to plant in my seed.
and wait for the april showers.
i'll pick a strawberry.
cuz it's cute and sweet,
lick and eat it gently.
from the head to feet.
i want to get down in the soil.
and remove all of your weeds,
i wish to touch you head to toe.
along with forfilling all your needs.
i'll pick a strawberry.
and it's nice and ripe,
lick and eat it gently.
cuz it's just my type.
love is blind and dumb.
but sweet as a sugar plum,
who draws the line of sin.
who gives the right to marry.
while my new era starts to begin,
i'll get to have just about any strawberry.
and i'll grab the forbidden fruit from the garden,
and i will plant any seed that i have to bury.
i'll pick a strawberry.
and it's the best one of all,
lick and eat it gently.
and keep this picture on my wall.
i bet no one gets the metaphor,
and a lot of you are confused as hell.
but we know that real life is a bore.
so we'll stick with this theme, and hope you understand, the words i tell...
i'll take you out of the garden
i'll show you my own eden
i'll take you and plant my seed in
and you win join me, now my era will begin
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AUSWIRKUNG VON ERFRIERUNG 



asche zu asche ist wie du verlassen mich 
und wenn ich meinen alles sollen gl�cklich 
du verlassen mir zu sterben, nun ich bin tot 
doch was tun du sorgen �ber jeremy vogt 
nein! 

gehen, finden die Ausweg von irhe H�hle 
sehen, die ende von die Stollen und sp�ren der Licht 
gehen, vielleicht ich werde machen alles heller 
sehen, wir brauchen gegenseitig... oder vielleicht nicht 

staub zu staub als du schauen mich jetzt, und kein dank zu dich 
wenn du weinen die ganze nacht lang, doch jetzt du bis nichts 
du wille brauchen mich und mein tr�sten wille nicht sein da 
kein heirat, ich werde sagen nein, und ich nicht tun sorgen wenn du sagen ja 
becuz i don't need ya! 

go, find the way out of your hole 
and maybe with that you will learn your role 
see, the end of the tunnel and feel the light 
but it will fork you to choose left or right 
go, maybe i will make things brightend 
and can have both of our spirits enlightend 
see, we need each other to live 
but i'm curious on how much you wish to give 

ich will uns zu zusammen sein 
und du bist so sch�n und fein 
zuknallen mir abw�rts wie eine gestein 
du will mich, bist du sicher, ja oder nein 

gehen, finden die Ausweg von irhe H�hle 
sehen, die ende von die Stollen und sp�ren der Licht 
gehen, vielleicht ich werde machen alles heller 
sehen, wir brauchen gegenseitig... 
ja oder nicht 
ja oder nicht! 
nein... deshalb das ist 
die Auswirkung 
von Erfrierung!
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SAMMY 


i wait for another 
but this time she's true
can i say that i love her 
i barely have a clue
but in desparation i'll have to stay with her anyway 
cuz it's better than being alone day after day 

but it's not that simple
there's still problems 
why can't you see 
that i'm so needy 
i need more of your attention 
and all i got so far is frustration

so close yet so far 
but almost seems down the street 
all i need is a car 
then we can someday meet 
and in a vacation we will hang out 
go to a concert to hear metallica shout 

so will i be patient for you 
and try to bear through 
maybe i'll try to wait through this 
if i were to be soon expecting a kiss 

it's not that simple 
there' still problems 
can't you see 
that i'm needy 
i need more of your attention 
and all i got so far is worry and depression 

if i made you upset, i'm sorry 
i didn't mean to be selfish 
but hey, what about me 
can't i have what i wish 
i'm not trying to be pushy 
i'm not trying to be a jerk 
but i too wish to be happy 
so help me make this relationship work 

so will i be patient for you 
and try to bear through 
maybe i'll try to wait through this 
if i were to be soon expecting a kiss 

it's not that simple 
all i got is depression 
it's not that simple 
i'm getting too impatient 
it's not that simple 
try to make a better impression 
it's not that simple 
all we're getting is more distant
(it's just dead space... 
another damage case... )




SAMMY part 2


i've made it clear you see 
that i miss ya and i'm needy 
you are my cure and remedy 
sugar love and eye candy 
add a better plot for us to be happy 
and i hope i didn't get too corny 
so baby what's the story 
do you really love me 

it's not too easy
put a plot back into the story
it's not too easy
we are getting no where fast
it's not too easy
this is putting me back into misery
it's not too easy
you need to help me make this relationship last

if you love me, come here and prove it 
hug and hold me, i need love to be happy 
come and lift us out of this pit 
don't leave me here alone, cuz i hate being lonely 
kiss me, embrace me, touch me, but not in a bad way 
and you've been gone so long, it's like we just met 
i miss you so bad, i want you to stay 
and assure me that i have no need to fret 

so c'mon baby, come and give me a sign (give me a kiss)
l�sst gl�cklich sein (this is what i wish)
ich leibe dich (ich will dich)
so heirate mich (f�r immer leibe mich)

i've made it clear you see 
that i miss ya and i'm needy 
you are my cure and remedy 
sugar love and eye candy 
add a better plot for us to be happy 
and i hope i didn't get too corny 
so baby what's the story 
bist du wirklich
leibe mich
alles wird sich schicken gl�cklich
do you really love me
c'mon and answer baby 
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fig. 7 (i love hinata inn, girls, yum, ohohhohohohohoh... but mainly shinobu)

http://xeronia.tripod.com is my other site, it's purpose is to hold my media, cuz geocities has many bandwidth issues, and i'm also switching back to fortunecity.com for hosting, and also know that sometimes the angelfire site doesn't always load, don't know why, but try it again after 30 minutes if it gives problems ever

DISCLAIMER: NONE OF THESE WERE MY PICTURES, THEY CAME FROM WEBSITES ALL OVER THE WORLD, THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME USE THEM, AND I'M SORRY FOR NOT ASKING YOU FIRST, AND ANOTHER NOTE, YAHOO AND ANGELFIRE ARE EXTREMELY GAY, SO TRYING TO FIND AND ACCESS MY MEDIA WILL BE HARD OR IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU, I AM SORRY, BUT REMEMBER IT'S YAHOO AND LYCOS FAULT, FUCKING BASTARDS, GEOCITES OFFERS BARELY ANY BANDWIDTH PER HOUR, AND ANGELFIRE FREEZES...


i know, i should buy the magna, so give me money why dont ya

oh-oh, sexy aint they?

... a magic card? kaolla scares me sometimes...

shinobu looks so sweet and cute, i wanna have a picnic with her, strawberries and cream

wow, i really want to watch that episode again, hehe, i'm a bad boy

i forgot the episode, but i always love seeing her with such a sunny happy face, i'm a good boy too

that episode was on drugs i tell you!

i love that anime girl, so cute and shy

">in bath robes, oh-oh, i love it baby

i never imagined her underwater, nice fanart

she is my angel of love.... come to me....

... splash...

soapy and clean, come clean my soul baby

what show was the cardcaptor from?  or was that the show, cardcaptors...

i wanna play with the water with you shinobu, i wanna get you all wet

you wish, whoever made this one probally fantasizes about her cleaning his kitchen all the time... but who wouldn't want her around?  :)

i would marry her if she was real

as i'm looking at shinbu's beautiful face, i think of all the websites i had to rip off to get these pictures

Ever questing

something i made for fun

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